Monday, May 04, 2009

I'm still here

and all is well.I'm just a little bogged down with momma. Plus I have got to the point where I don't know much to talk about.
The little meeting my little one and I had on the 23rd seemed to go well. We don’t know the results just yet, I still feel good about the situation.
I got on face book a little bit the other day. It took me 2 hours to catch up on a year’s worth applications and messages.
I hate to admit this, but I’m a little burned out about keeping momma. I love her to death, but I need some help. I know I shouldn’t complain, and trying really hard not to. Momma has gotten to the point where if I’m not there she acts like a big baby and if I try to leave to come home she finds more for me to do or some kind of reason to keep me there.
Hopefully this will be a better week and I’ll have more time for me.
Hope all is well with you!


Pamela said...

You NEED some help girl!

Ami said...

I second that. You need some help.

And I know it's not in your nature to put your foot down with your mom, but you have to let her know that you have your life, too.

Can you find a respite care provider??

Holly said...

Yes, you surely need help.

There should be help through your mother's Dr. or the hospital, both emotionally, for you (you're not a baby and what you're feeling is totally nomal) and, like Ami said, maybe some respite care.

Speak up and get someone to help you.


MOM #1 said...

Never feel guilty for needing a little YOU time.

If the well of your spirit isn't full, then there's nothing left to generously donate to others.

I'm speaking to you as much as I am speaking to myself.

It's a lesson that's necessary yet so hard to learn.

Speak up for yourself. You'll all be so much better for it.

karisma said...

Hugs Kitten, I think you should try and get some help too. Do you have homecare over there? Where someone can come in and just do a little bit each day to take the load of family.

While it would be nice to be Superwoman, raising a family takes it toll as well, you need time for yourself or you will burn out. Everybody needs help at times, don't be afraid to ask for it. There are just not enough hours in the day for you to keep running two households. I find it hard enough running one.

You need this time with your mama to have fond memories not resentful ones. Go and seek help now. Hugs and smoochies, take care of yourself. xxxxx

Junebug said...

My mom is almost 79 and she told me the other day that she knew we could never live together. She would get on my nerves. My mom talks incessantly. I mean honestly she never stops. That would drive me crazy. I am a quiet person. But I don't know what will happen in the future. Caregivers are the most neglected people. Especially family caregivers. It takes a toll on you. I hope you can find help and rest. You definitely need it. My mom would hate to be in a nursing home but if the physical and medical needs became too great she would go there.

jettied said...

Yes i what ever number it is..agree you need some help!! would be so hard to have a family and do all that plus be a mom to your mom. You have your angel wings my dear but I can't imagine how hard it has been on you!! i wondered to about Respite care..just to help you out some.
thinking of You!!