Friday, January 25, 2008

A lot on the mind and not a lot to say.

Yep, that's me. My mind is in so many directions and I have not had much to blog about. Don't make much since uh? Here's a list of few things on my little mind.

#1. We are going to look at a truck for Dan Dan today. I really hope it works out. We have been with one vehicle since November. Which hasn't been that hard on us, but in some ways it has. I can't just jump and go if and when I want. I can't go check on momma if I want. Don't get me wrong on this statement: Not being able to jump up every time momma wants me to has been good for her, in a way. I do love my mom and don't mind doing for her, but she has gotten so dependant on me. If she really needs me she comes and gets us and I help her, but demands are not quite as much as at 1st. Plus, this puppy has helped her not be so lonely.
#2. My middle child JB. He wants to go back to school next year to play football. Which I have decided to allow. I don't 100% like the whole idea, but I don't want him holding this over my head and rebelling. He is very high strong. The worry is that he is my child that has the hardest time learning. I have to put more into him than the other 2. I have been trying so hard to make sure he is where he needs to be for 7th grade, but he isn't grasping things as well as he needs to. That's why I want him to stay home, not the only reason, but part. Let me give an example: Let's say I think he has grasp something in Math or English, I give him a test, and he acts like I haven't even showed him. UGH! So, I go over the test and then at the end of the week we re-do the test and most of the time, the same ole thing. I'm thinking that I should just go ahead and move forward with his work instead of harping on the same thing over and over. Maybe it will click as time goes by. But part of me wants to make sure he does grasp it.
#3. Money issues! I know everybody has them. 2007 for us was pretty stressful. As far as I can see for 2008, things look a lot better and I really hope so! #3 sorta ties in with #4. So......
#4. Marriage strain. Such a ugly word! In 2007 Dan Dan had a lot of health problems and we had money problems because he was unable to work. I know that this has put some strain on us and I'm hoping that's all it is. Dan Dan and I had a rocky few years, but things had seemed to turn around. We were getting along better than ever. Like best friends! (Like it should be) But the last 6 months or so we seem to have drifted away. Matter fact the last month he gets on my last nerve! Maybe some of it is hormonal, but part of it I think is because we have drifted some and my anxieties of the past are bothering me. I really hope our Past is all in the past and this too shall pass.

I have a few other minor things stirring up there, but these are things that are weighing on my mind the most. I know time will bring these things to pass and everything happens for a reason. I just needed to get a load off my mind.


Holly said...

I hope 2008 turns out to be a good year. Good wishes.

Joy T. said...

Sounds like a lot to worry about but here's hoping 2008 is much better!

Robinella said...

For #2, remember that you can "afterschool" to help him catch up/keep up etc.

I hope 2008 turns around for you, Sweetie!

OOO and my word verification is VEINS. Yuck.

The Rotten Correspondent said...

Oh Kitten, I'm so sorry. Money issues, kid issues and marriage issues are bad enough when it's just ONE of them, much less all three.

I hope everything gets back on track for you soon. I know how stressful it is.

Anonymous said...

I hope you have a better year this year. Money and health issues do affect marriage things as does the stress you have had with your mom being sick and the things you worry about with the kids. Him getting on your last nerve is pretty normal and I think it takes some work and looking at the positive and the good things he does, and it will pass. As for your son going to school, I think it is a good time and a bad time. Bad because junior high kids are rotten and good because he will be in a low enough grade that should he decide to come home things aren't messed up, and if he is behind, he has a few years to catch up. You can help him after school and he may find that he concentrates more because he has a goal (football) that he doesn't want to mess up with getting bad grades. And the exercise often helps a kid sleep better and they have a clearer mind because of it. I think it will work out no matter what and you just need to trust God to take care of him and the rest of you in your trials and you have some great blog friends to support you in word even if we aren't there in deed.

Junebug said...

Terrific comments by all. So supportive. Made me a little teary. I also hope and pray good things for your family. :D

Heather K. said...

#1 I hope things work out with the truck. While I am a total hermit, I like to know that I have the feedom to get up and go if I want to. Glad to hear that momma isn't lonely. Friends work wonders, even the furry variety.
#2 Have you brought up football when he is struggling with his work? Not to hold it over his head, but to give him a realistic view of what public school will be like. If he isn't able to pass tests in school, he won't be allowed to play. Also, if football is his incentive to do well in school, how will he do the rest of the year? Once he is there, pray, trust God, and be ready to go in there and knock a couple heads together if needed. My kids started in public school. While I hope that it gets better as they get older, I still don't want them there. I do think you are doing the right thing by letting him try it though. Just let him know that he can come back home if he wants to. Be his soft place to fall.
#3 Yep, us too.
#4 Us too, as well. For us the strain is caused by a new job and a new baby on the way. I still have those I don't trust you feelings sometimes, not that he has done anything major to deserve it, but others in my life have and it is hard to let those feelings go. Talk to each other and keep the communication flowing. Even yelling about something is communicating and is better than that 2 strangers under the same roof stuff.

Hang in there. Things will fall into place. Doesn't it seem like they usually do?

Heather said...

(((HUGS))) I'm sorry you're going through all of this. We are going through a lot of the same things. Like others have said, all that other stress can make a marriage rocky and strained. It helped for me to remember that we are on the same team. As much as he aggravates me, he's my teammate. We're in this together.

Hang in there, things will get better.