Friday, January 25, 2008
A lot on the mind and not a lot to say.
Yep, that's me. My mind is in so many directions and I have not had much to blog about. Don't make much since uh? Here's a list of few things on my little mind.
#1. We are going to look at a truck for Dan Dan today. I really hope it works out. We have been with one vehicle since November. Which hasn't been that hard on us, but in some ways it has. I can't just jump and go if and when I want. I can't go check on momma if I want. Don't get me wrong on this statement: Not being able to jump up every time momma wants me to has been good for her, in a way. I do love my mom and don't mind doing for her, but she has gotten so dependant on me. If she really needs me she comes and gets us and I help her, but demands are not quite as much as at 1st. Plus, this puppy has helped her not be so lonely.
#2. My middle child JB. He wants to go back to school next year to play football. Which I have decided to allow. I don't 100% like the whole idea, but I don't want him holding this over my head and rebelling. He is very high strong. The worry is that he is my child that has the hardest time learning. I have to put more into him than the other 2. I have been trying so hard to make sure he is where he needs to be for 7th grade, but he isn't grasping things as well as he needs to. That's why I want him to stay home, not the only reason, but part. Let me give an example: Let's say I think he has grasp something in Math or English, I give him a test, and he acts like I haven't even showed him. UGH! So, I go over the test and then at the end of the week we re-do the test and most of the time, the same ole thing. I'm thinking that I should just go ahead and move forward with his work instead of harping on the same thing over and over. Maybe it will click as time goes by. But part of me wants to make sure he does grasp it.
#3. Money issues! I know everybody has them. 2007 for us was pretty stressful. As far as I can see for 2008, things look a lot better and I really hope so! #3 sorta ties in with #4. So......
#4. Marriage strain. Such a ugly word! In 2007 Dan Dan had a lot of health problems and we had money problems because he was unable to work. I know that this has put some strain on us and I'm hoping that's all it is. Dan Dan and I had a rocky few years, but things had seemed to turn around. We were getting along better than ever. Like best friends! (Like it should be) But the last 6 months or so we seem to have drifted away. Matter fact the last month he gets on my last nerve! Maybe some of it is hormonal, but part of it I think is because we have drifted some and my anxieties of the past are bothering me. I really hope our Past is all in the past and this too shall pass.
I have a few other minor things stirring up there, but these are things that are weighing on my mind the most. I know time will bring these things to pass and everything happens for a reason. I just needed to get a load off my mind.