My nerves are just about Shot................

Yes, she is cute and I just wanna pinch those checks, but still don't know the results of the DNA. Plus, Daniel is a lot better, but not 100%. I have not called the oral surgeon yet. Yes, I know! Shame on me, but this week has been crazy with the baby being born Monday. Today I had a 4 mth old, 9mth old, 2yr old, 3yr old and 4yr old. So, hopefully tomorrow I will not have so many and I will call the oral surgeon. I know one thing is for sure, I better call the Dr before I get the call about the DNA results.
Hope you all have a Blessed Night!

This goes with my post below

Don Williams - Lord, I hope this day is good
Litening to Don Williams has helped me a lot here the last month.

Sorry I haven't been around since....

I lost momma 1/11/10. I have been keeping myself really busy. To the point of over load! My older brother, Mike, got busted for a meth lab 2 weeks after our mother past. I spent almost all my time and energy trying to help him and his wife. I couldn't even grieve over momma because I was so focused on Mike. In March when momma's money came in, Mike's wife, started trying to put a wedge between Mike and I. Well, when the money was gone and Mike was gone to the pen she put the ultimate wedge between us. He went to the pen in June 2010 and was home by that Dec. I have seen him twice since June 2010. I'm the only one in the family not allowed to talk to him.
Feb. 2011 my great nephew was diagnosed with cancer the day before his 2nd birthday. I started helping my niece out with her other 2 kids. Through the summer I help keep Fisher and his 2 brothers, plus I got where I was keeping other great nieces and nephews to help my family out. (My great nephew is cancer free and doing really well.) When school started I thought my life would slow, but NAW, no such luck!
Let me back up to the day before Mother's Day 2011. My middle child lost his virginity. About 6 weeks after that I got a phone call saying that the little girl was pregnant. So, in the middle of keeping all these kids we was dealing with that and helping the girl all we could. After the little girl found out she was having a girl she has started cutting us out of the picture. Well, to make a really long story short because I would have a book if I wrote it all out. LOL! Okay, back on track. I have a lawyer and have called DNA people and in less than 3 weeks I may or may not be grand maw.
In the middle of all that my brother in law's (Dan's brother!)girlfriend called DHS on me and my nieces ex sister in law also called them on me to get to my niece. Yes, DHS got 2 phone calls on me in 1 day. The list was a mile long. I did fail the day came. Why? Well, I spent 3 or more days trying to help my brother in law and his girlfriend out that I didn't touch my house in a few days and when she got to my house there was popcorn all in the floor because I had 4 or 5 kids. LOL! The big topper was that Dan had a deer head on the front porch. Since he has got down in his back he can't do as much in day and after pulling that deer out of the woods he couldn't do much else. He was gonna take it off when he left the next day, but he forgot because he was hurting so bad. Now, it has been 3 mths and DHS has not come back by. That drives me nuts! Cause I feel I should be up cleaning from the time I get up till the time I go to bed.
Now, all that has got me where I am today. A couple weeks ago I cried my eyes out over missing momma and Mike. (Remember, I lost 2 precious people in 2011) After my crying spell I realized I was headed for crash and burn. After some long soul searching I am now learning to take a few mins a day and working on moving up from there.
Life is to short! We can either let others define us or we define our self. I was letting others define me and it was tearing me up in side and showing really loud on the outside. I have decided to stop letting others define me and over look every body's BS and sit back and enjoy letting the Lord take care of my problems. Now, I'm not perfect so I'm only letting go a little at a time. I know I need to let it all go, but at least I'm on the right track.
Peace, Love & Happiness to all!

Part 1 of momma and my Holiday

It probably is a good thing I haven't been online much these last few days. One day over tired, the next over stressed and so forth and so on. But I do have to say it has turned out to be one of the nicest Holidays we have had in a long time. Even thou we put momma in the hospital last Sunday and she expected me to do a 100 chores plus stay up there almost the whole time. It wasn't that bad at 1st, but I got wore out. I wouldn't complain thou because she has always been there for me. Last Friday night she threw a fit on the nurses to come home. My Pastor and his wife just happened to show up when I got there. My pastor's wife called my oldest brother trying to help us make momma stay. The nurses told us if momma went home before discharged that her hospital bill wouldn't be paid, the Pulmonary Dr's would drop her and she wouldn't be sent home with her oxygen that she was qualified for. I told the nurses that she was over pumped up on steroids and needed a shower. They let Sam and I take her for a ride in the wheel chair to get out of the room and allowed me to take her to the next floor to give her a bath. While Sam and I had her down riding in the wheel chair she told Sam to go home that all she needed was me because I was her wonder women! I was flattered, but also wish my brothers would step in and help, but I guess now I know why they haven't. I finally got her a bath and calmed down about mid night. I wasn't expecting the Dr to release her till sometime this week, but mom called me the next morning while I was cleaning her house and washing her clothes and told me that the Dr had released her. My nieces on my brothers' side and I had planned on making candy that day, plus I was hoping someone else would take her clean clothes to her for I could get a little rest, but it didn't happen that way. I think the Dr. only released momma because of her fit she threw the night before. The Charge Nurse told me that even thou momma qualified for oxygen the Dr wasn't sending her on any and said he would she her in the ER with in a week. This made me really mad!, but I don't guess there is nothing I can do about it. Two of my nieces and I cooked a lot of candy that Saturday night then I got up the next morning and cooked most of our Christmas dinner for Monday. I went back early Monday and finished up the rest and then came back home to finish what I had here. Even thou momma got really tired and had to lay down most of the time we were all there, we had a peaceful, happy time!
(Here are a few pictures @ momma's)










(The last picture is one of momma. She is the one on the end in pink. You can click on the pictures to get a better view. Oh! I guess you can tell I got my Digital camera for Christmas I wanted)
When I went and gave momma a bath tonight she told me she didn't want to go back in the hospital, but wanted me to take care of her at home. I don't blame her! I guess I will call the Dr's office tomorrow and see what we can work out. I don't know if she will pull out of this or continue going down, but I do know that I'm thankful that I had her one more Christmas and it turned out so good.
I will post more of my concerns and more of our other family Holiday tomorrow.