Monday, January 18, 2010

Thank you everyone for your kind words, Love and support.

This week has been like a foggy whirlwind. It is finally starting to die down and reality is setting in. The good thing about all this is I don't have any regrets and my brothers and I coming together even closer if one could imagine that. We have always been close, but with us growing up and having our own families, we just didn't seem as close as we did when we lived at home. This week we have bonded together in a new bond, which is great in my book. I have seen other families fall apart and fight over a parent passing and I don't think I could have dealt with this week if we had all that going on. The hardest thing this week besides momma not being here is cleaning out her house. I'm glad we all are going to have little pieces of momma with us, but the house will never be the same. My youngest brother got the house and he said it was harder staying there without momma than he thought. I could not imagine I'm having a hard time just going over there. He said he was going to give it 6mths to see if it gets easier and if not he is going to more than likely sell it. If he does I will not blame him, but I doubt he will because he has lived in that house since he was 2.
We still have a few legal things to deal with and finish cleaning out mom’s house. After today, I’m going to start back schooling with the kids. That will help keep me busy and hopefully make things a little easier. Not only was she my mother she was my best friend. I’m holding together okay, but have found myself saying to the kids when they are picking on me, I’m going to tell my momma. I did that yesterday and my middle brother called as soon as I got it out of my mouth. What made it so weird is that he has momma’s phone and I have not changed it to his name in my phone. So, as soon as I said I’m going to call momma momma called my phone. It was one of those moments where my heart sank, but made me laugh at the same time.
I just want to thank everyone for sticking with me in the last 2 years and being such dear friends!
Hugs to everyone and hope you have a blessed day!

8 comments:

Ami said...

I'm glad you're doing okay. It's not easy to deal with everything that's coming up. I'm also very happy to hear that you and your brothers are closer through all of this.

Anonymous said...

I'm glad as well to hear you're doing well. I hope getting back to a schedule will be good for you. So glad your family is drawing together.

Gail said...

I just can't imagine what you're going through, but it sounds like there are some bright spots.

You are a strong, strong woman, that's for sure!

Hugs to you and your family.

SabrinaT said...

I'm glad that you all are doing OK. I think its a testament to your mom that you all are so close..

karisma said...

The fact that you are laughing while your heart is sinking is a great sign. You are looking up. I have been thinking of you a lot. Keep smiling my friend, it will ease with time. Hugs and smoochies xoxoox

Pamela said...

I remember all of my siblings going thru my moms stuff. We wanted such interesting little things that meant much to each of us.

Glad you are grieving in a healthy way.

storyteller said...

I'm glad you and your siblings are managing this transition time smoothly ... you remain in my thoughts and prayers. I've had computer crash issues so I'm behind on visits, but doing what I can to catch up today.
Hugs and blessings,

Carrie Kisling said...

Hi- I don't really even know how I happened upon your blog. I clicked next blog on my dashboard, and there was your blog. I thought it so interesting as I started to read. See, my mom (also my best friend) died the day after your mom did, after an 11 month long battle with leukemia. I am 38 years old, just a little younger than you. I have 2 brothers, one younger one older. My younger brother is living at my parent's house (although my dad is still alive, and my parents were still married - not sure of your situation in that regard.). Sounds familiar! I started a blog to help me process through the grieving. It's nice to have an outlet. Anyway, just thought I'd let you know you are not alone.