Wednesday, January 20, 2010

A little update in my world!

Yesterday KB and I started back with her schooling. We mostly did reviews because it's been so long since we have done any schooling. Yes, we did a little here and there especially when momma was at the Dr or having her treatment. I feel our schooling will much better today. KB seemed to enjoy getting back into it or maybe it was all that one on one attention she got. Yesterday was the hardest I have had since momma passed away though. I was able to hold my crying in till Dan got home for I could go to my room and cry all by myself and let it out. I actually feel much better this morning. It's hard being the strong cookie trying to hold everybody else up, but at least I'm still able to have my moments to let it all out.
I feel like once I get us a schedule set up I should be able to blog and visit more. I think that will help a lot also because I sure have missed yall so much.
My brothers and I have got to make ourselves go and clean the rest of momma's house out this weekend. I think that will be a big part of our healing and help my little brother set the house up the way he wants it.
I hope to see yall soon! Take care and have a wonderful day!

15 comments:

Anonymous said...

I imagine there will be lots of ups and downs for a long time. Make sure you take the time you need.

karisma said...

Hugs and smoochies xoxox I have been keeping you in my heart.

Shirley Hill said...

Oh honey, my mom has been gone for two years now and I still cry. Just keep those Kleenex is close reach and now it's okay.

MOM #1 said...

Routines really do help, but time is really what you need. Don't rush yourself, allow yourself time to feel all the feelings you need to feel. If you push them away now, they'll just come back when you really aren't expecting it.

Hugs and kisses!

storyteller said...

Glad you're able to get back to some 'routines' ... they do help, but it's important to give yourself time to grieve. Tears are healing ... seriously! They help to get the 'sad' out of you. Writing helped me too ...
Hugs and blessings,

Heather said...

I second Storyteller's comment. Cry and write. I lost my Grandma to cancer this time last year. I started to write down the memories I have of her. Not all are good, but they are all real life. I want to remember her always and I want to share her with my kids that didn't get to know her as well as I did. It has helped the healing. Sometimes I cry the whole time I write, but it is real and I would rather have a sad moment that is real than 20 happy moments that are fake. Hang in there. You are always in my thoughts.

Jettie said...

OOHH Iam so so sorry!!! Iam so sorry. I know how much she meant to you and how much you have went threw. iam really sorry.

tasflowrance said...

Thank you for this good topic

Unknown said...

hi, feeling sorry for what you went through, keep your closed ones with you, and they make you feel that they are with you at every aspect of life...tats going to help you to forget the sadness in life...
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Unknown said...

Hi -- you don't know me. My name is Debbye, and I was browsing blogs (you do that when you're sick on the couch)-- and I found your blog. It's very honest and insightful. I am a counselor by trade -- and I wanted to tell you how sorry I am that you lost your mom. Blessings, Debbye
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Khmer Basket said...

A little thing but that's meaningful updates.

MOM #1 said...

I just wanted to drop by and say "Hello." I hope time is healing some wounds and that Spring is moving in nicely for you.

Take care!

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Jettie said...

OOHh Im so sorry!! I have so been a bad blogging friend..although I think of you often!! Stop over and see our news!! Add yourself to my followers list so I have you there!!I hope your sadness will be repleced with good memories!!
xoxoxox

dawn said...

Hi there. I was thinking of you and thought I would stop by. I hope you are doing alright.