Just when I needed you most

NOT LIKE THE SONG BY Randy VanWarmer, BUT JUST THE OPPISITE.
Thank you Jettie for my homemade journal book! It really did come in when I needed it the most! I had forgotten about giving you my home address until it came in the mail, so it was a wonderful surprise! Why did I say when I needed it most? My beautiful KB is going to be gone all this week because she is gone to church camp. This is her first time really away from home, except with family. Plus, I can't talk to her every night before she goes to bed. I think that's the hardest part. But, my baby is growing up and I know she is having a BLAST! She really needed this break because she has been helping me with momma so much.
The second reason this wonderful package came in when I needed it most:
Momma is getting to more than a handful! She is becoming very needy and can become mean as HELL! Before I could get a family meeting together my oldest brother told momma that I was going to put her on Hospice. He didn’t say that I was thinking of it, why I was thinking of it, or that I was going to ask everyone his or her opinion. Mom and I got into a heated argument. I told her why I was THINKING of this and that I wanted us to talk about it. After about an hour, she calmed down then told me why she didn’t want Hospice. She said that if we put her on Hospice and she went into respiratory arrest we would not be able to get her off Hospice fast enough to put her on a ventilator. She said that if we put her on Hospice and she went into respiratory arrest we would not be able to get her off Hospice fast enough to put her on a ventilator. So, I guess we will not do Hospice and wait till September to get help.
Well, I’m running out of time. Thanks again Jettie! You are a real sweetie!
Hope you have a wonderful day! Hopefully I will have time to come and visit soon!!!!!

Our new normal

While momma was in the hospital, I was able to catch up on some rest and some housework. But my rest did not prepare me for what the Dr said we were coming home to. I thought momma had caught my cold, but that wasn’t it. Her COPD has progressed. Momma did not respond to any of the medications while she was in the hospital. Now she is in a hospital bed and a wheel chair. Momma has to have someone with 24 hours a day and cannot do anything for herself. The Dr said this would be our new normal unless she started sliding down hill. Now her COPD is affecting her heart as well. We haven’t had any good days since we come home. I’m going call her cousin this week and ask her about Hospice because with her insurance we can’t get the help we really need. Her Medicare doesn’t take effect until September. If momma is still with us in September, we can go through Three Rivers and get a sitter and a nurse.
I can’t say if I will be online much or not. I do miss everyone so very much!
Take care!
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO!